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Implosion [20 Aug 2007|10:17pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I hate to turn this blog emo but life is taking a turn for the worse. Most of you know SunRocket bombed last month. Thus ending up with myself and 250 other employee's getting the axe. That's just the icing on the cake. The only part of my life keeping me sane seem's to be falling apart. I'm not sure what to do or where to turn. Hopefully this is not another trip down the spiral slide to hell.

(Kiss my ass)

Wedding Chapel Pictures! [31 May 2007|07:36pm]
[ mood | busy ]

I'm to lazy to enter all of my images and stuff here so heres the jiffy; I posted a blog on my myspace about the chapel I am getting married at. In that blog I posted tons of pictures of the place. Its very beautiful and I recommend you all take a look at it. Its very unique. Click the link below to check my myspace blog out.

Wedding Chapel Pictures!

(Kiss my ass)

Building A Home? [29 Mar 2007|11:09am]
[ mood | calm ]

In exactly 9 days (as of today) Aileen and I will begin moving into our very own place. Aside from getting engaged; this is the largest step I've ever taken. I dont quite understand how things have gotten this far. I dont understand why were not at each other's throats. Things are going so incredibly well...it quite frankly scares the shit out of me. I've never been in this situation before therefore I dont know how to act or react. I'm so use to the worse case scenarios that I never stopped to think what perfection would be like.

Although life in general is far from perfection. I've just experienced the first failure in business (mind you I have had much success). It's not quite a bad thing though. I've almost always been self employed and thus you never have a steady life as theres never a steady paycheck. You could be making unimaginable amounts of money at times and barely making any at other times. I vowed to never again work under another but its now not so bad. My paycheck stays the same. I cant expect to make unimaginable amounts of money but I will never lack it either. Life is much less chaotic...I kinda dig the calmness and routine I now have. This atleast gives me the steady foothold to rebuild the foundation I once had.

(Kiss my ass)

The Storm Hits [13 Mar 2007|06:30pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

Its been a tough day. Two good friends of mine seem to have turned against me and possibly a third. It really really bugs me...especially that it happens at this moment in time. Life is difficult...I dont have much to my name and I am working between 10 - 12 hours a day just to get my life back in track. To all the friends I do have out there; know that I really do appreciate you all. Especially those that have been there for me in my time of dire need. I wouldnt trade any of you for the world. Know that I am here and will also help to the best of my abilities. True friends are hard to come by.

(Kiss my ass)

Sinking... [26 Feb 2007|11:32pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

The Ships been battered by all kinds of shit throughout the last few weeks and I now feel I'm sinking. This time I have nobody to go to. Nobody can hold me afloat this time. Not my closests of friends, not family, not even the girl that claims she loves me. Theres absolutely no where to go. I wanna run... I wanna go home... But I know all too well the captian goes down with the ship.

I'm sinking.

(I've gotten 2 Kisses Already- Kiss my ass)

Thoughts... [25 Feb 2007|12:43am]
[ mood | loved ]

I've been thinking about my fiance...and some of the things she does that keeps my heart always pacing. Every time I see her, no matter if I had seen her a half hour before or as simple as ten minutes, shes always so happy to see me. Its like the very sight of me puts a smile on her face. I find that incredible. In fact thats never been a time that I can remember that she hasent had the widest grin on her face.

She's always been there to keep my spirits up. And thats a full time job lately. Things have been terrible lately but with her by my side its easy to just shrug off my problems and see clearly that things will be better. I know without her my life would be a complete disaster right now. I love her so very much!

The Poetically challenged should stop reading now...

Another week we've seen just past
Our love that’s grown will surely last
I dream the day, that we shall meet
To Seal our marriage, for eternity

You're the one I've been searching for
To give my love, it's you I adore
You consume my thoughts with every hour
I see your face like a lovely flower

You smell so sweet, your fragrance pure
I seek your love, you’re so mature
With that thought, it's time for me
To get to work, until we're free

I'll see you soon, my loving dear
Think of me and have no fear
With my love, I'll spend my life
You'll surely be, my loving wife.

(Kiss my ass)

Engagement Ring Picture! [21 Feb 2007|10:58am]
[ mood | happy ]

Heres a picture for those that lack myspace and cant view it. See the ring on her finger?

Thats my baby!

(I've gotten 3 Kisses Already- Kiss my ass)

We're Engaged! [14 Feb 2007|07:36pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Yeah thats right. Figured what better day to get engaged than valentines day. I took my baby down to seqiouta park in springfield...we braved the freezing temperatures and walked around the lake. As we sat down on a bench I told her how much I loved her than got on one knee and proposed. Of course she said yes! So were now and engaged and its great!

After that we went out to dinner at red robin and that was also great. I bragged my butt off at the new engagement. I'll post pictures of the ring and of us together soon. I'm really happy!

Best Valentines Day Ever!

(I've gotten 6 Kisses Already- Kiss my ass)

From The Ashes I Arise... [08 Feb 2007|10:42am]
My life course has taken a turn for the worse (and quite possibly the best). The last Icestorm not only crippled our house but also crippled the business. With key events that happend before the storm we have been left with little money to keep DreamLan running through this dry spell so I'm sinking the ship.

She had a very good run with tons of success. Not many 20 yr olds can say they have created multiple successful business's. Although the ship is sinking I now possess valuable knowledge on how to succeed once again.

And Thus a new business has arisen from the ashes. One of which will take little investment. I've had extroidinary success in the wild world of the Internet and thus this new business shall be dedicated to. I'll post more details as the new business solidifys.

Personal Life hasent been to bad. Now that the business is going under I can now get a temporary stable job and we can get a house. That is the plan for the coming months. Were both working our butts off for this and It'll pay off nicely.

We may be going to Cali after we're stable. I'm not sure that there is anything for me here in Missouri and this new business can be run from any location and in fact California may be a better preference. Of course me being homesick has alot to do with this decision. And the fact that my father wants me to help him set up another business. This could all be my key home but there is alot to think about. Life in Cali is extremely expensive. Not sure I wanna dish out the dough for a mediocre lifestyle. Although there is alot of opportunitys there. Decisions Decisions. Oh well, I'm giving myself a year to decide. Either way I dont think I wanna stay in MO. It's time for me to explore this world a bit.
(Kiss my ass)

Falling Apart [18 Jan 2007|06:15pm]
I keep getting kicked in the gut over and over again. Whenever it seems things are so low that it can only go up the floor falls out and I fall again. Things are so bad right now I'm not even sure where to start. Alot of my problems have been broadcast on the news throughout the week. Beginning with a freak snow storm three weeks ago to the worse Ice Storm missouri has ever seen. The place I once called home has been trashed by mother nature and I am now literally homeless. I'm pretty much just living at work now. This is putting quite a strain on my relationship. I'm falling apart.
(I've gotten 2 Kisses Already- Kiss my ass)

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